The case of Self-Imprisonment

Disclaimer - I am my own sample set even if some of my thoughts are shaped by discussions I had over the years with friends/family and of course, the way I processed the world around. To be very frank, I can only fully vouch for the way I feel and analyze my thoughts. So take my blogs in that spirit. (Like the title says - RANDOM THOUGHTS OVERFLOWING)

Over the years, I keep having these questions in my mind. Bear with me as I try to answer my own questions :-)

Who is the Master and who is the slave?

body, mind, heart or soul - where lies the brave....

While not solving at-hand problems, our brains get streams of positive and negative thoughts. Filtering and processing them is the tough part. If I am the manager of my thoughts, why do I let negative thoughts enter my brain. Sometimes those thoughts can be triggered by some comments or negative energy from someone else but most of the times, I am the only making myself sad. It took some time to train myself to be that aware to block the negative thought spirals. The ones who can keep positive thoughts longer in their minds, are usually the happy ones.

If we make peace with our primal urges and so called vices, if we learn to justify our mistakes, if we learn to accept our emotional obsessions, then we must be the slave.

If we can be aware of the things that make us human and still keep a separate identity to balance them, may be we are the master.

Or may be there is no master or slave, it is just those biological random neural impulses that we fools think that we can or can not control. However that control changes everything around us. The way we feel the world and the way we perceive ourselves.

Does it get better over the years?

The best moments are always those when I am in the moment - no past, no future- just present. And that too if  I am with the right people or the right place, life is bliss. However, my bold decisions helped me to create those right conditions as I said NO to the influenced beliefs and I tried to form something of my own- influenced by many but processed by myself.

So, time and training do help!

What really helped me?

Being aware even when I am weak and prone to mistakes. An observer does not always disrupt but can give guidance when the sense and strength are back.

Why I think this back and forth is not bad!!

It is fun most of the times. However, sometimes it ruins the 'living in the moment' thing. But why should we spend the whole day to solve a puzzle if it was solved yesterday? May be we should learn something new every day. So back and forth short recap is good but not repeating lessons.

Did I find my genie?

Sometimes all the thoughts align, the genie appears and asks me what boons I want. I wish to ask the same thing - give me the awareness+ energy to learn and ignore the rest.  I ended up loving Himalayas because to be aware/conscious was easier for me there. And the genie was there all the time as the guide and somehow stayed with me since then. To be centered , one does not need to be in Himalayas I believe. But for me, nature is that home and Himalaya was that catalyst to build that connection.

One can be at their home and be the happiest & most centered---- at peace with herself/himself. But some people need bigger homes with a blue roof expanded to the horizon, an endless valley floor and a mountain mirror to see a better reflection of ones self... some do not.

Wishing everyone to find their own genie and their own home....

To my genie.....